To give some context, I’ve never had negative feelings towards Obama; in fact, I’ve always liked him.
The issue started about three weeks ago. I dreamed about Barack while working with him and Michelle on their Netflix show. We were looking over demographics related to various areas. Without realizing it, I said, “Yeah, that word, we should do pretty well in (area near me).” He just looked at me and stormed out, with Michelle following. I woke up and splashed cold water on my face. I dismissed it. I don’t have a racist bone in my body. It was just a dream, right?
A week and a half later, I had a similar dream. This time, we were wine-tasting together. I don’t remember the lead-up, but I ended up saying, “The sommelier said we should be detecting earthy tones in this wine, but it’s just not registering with me, that word.” Instead of storming out, he sternly asked, “Why did you think that was appropriate to say?” I stuttered, trying to explain it was an accident before waking up again.
The most recent incident happened last night. I was at a family barbecue with the Obamas—just their family and mine. Barack was grilling, and I was chatting with Michelle while the kids played (I know Sasha and Malia are adults now, but I still see them as kids). I politely said to Michelle, “Excuse me for a moment,” and marched over to Barack. I tapped him on the shoulder, and when he turned around, I just said that word. I can brush it off happening once or twice, but three separate dreams is too much.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t want this to keep happening. Every time it occurs, my work suffers the next day. I’ve started lying to my wife, saying I’ve been having nightmares, but I don’t think she fully believes me. Lately, I’ve been worried that I might accidentally say it in my sleep and she’ll hear. I’m at my wit’s end, and I want it to stop.
